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hackerlar aramislar arastirmislar, kim bize en iyi sponsorluk yapar sormuslar veee beni bulmuslar. hz. isa'nin sozlerini, ve tum bilgileri nasil paylasilir, evet indrani'nin blogu bunu en iyi sekilde isimizi gorur demisler.

ne alaka ya...

okuyanlardan rica, bu site acilirsa ^"contact us" ikondan onlara diyecekleriniz varsa buyrun, beni yeterince dinlemis degiller. bunlari kime sikayet etmeliyim de bana fikir verirseniz sevinirim.

eskimisler

atilmak uzere sirada olan eskiyenleri dikkatli secmeli. eskidikce deger kazanan esya cok. o degeri bilen tek biziz, baska biri deger koydugu zaman farkli bir boyuta geciyor. mesela dusundugum zaman organlarim eskiyor ama yoga yaparak degerini saglam tutarak aslinda degerini yukseltmis oluyorum. ayni sey annemin ayakkabilari, eski kumaslar ve onunla yaptirdigim elbiseler, antika esyalar ve eski fotograflar.

ondan antika ve eski yerlerde gozlerim mutlu oluyor.

florida sun and the nashvegas twang

a week and some has flown by. (try to read this with the southern accent, it's real fun.) seeing camp chiefs, some after 7 odd years was truly memorable. i was a little nervous...people change, priorities change but once i was among them i realised somethings never change. the love doesn't change. possibly after time the love just grows.

what does one do in florida? one rents out a boat preferably a pontoon boat and has fun people to go swimming in the springs with. if you are lucky see a manatee. we spotted one next to our boat. the 3 sisters spring was gorgeous. but first a little about the day in the sun. 15 chiefs get on the pontoon and each time ch. roz puts a little gas into our ride this high pitched screeching sound cramps our style. we call it in, wait for an hour to get it checked out, the verdict is water in the oil, we wait for a half hour to get a replacement pontoon before we head out to the springs.

3 sisters springs is one of the those places the locals would only know. you cannot even spot it but you know you are close with all the boats hanging around the spot. a little opening, a strong current and a difficult swim upstream gets you to an aweinspiring green and turquoise waters. it's cold.

we head back and decide to cruise the channel in crystal river. there are chiefs upfront, on the deck, talking about property values in palm beach...we are snacking on scrabble cheese-its, ch. maribeth is napping behind the cooler...and suddenly a huge crash. there's nothing in front of us to crash into. two of the chiefs on the deck are overboard and a stunned ch. cherri is pointing in opposite directions to swim away from the boat. the boat is immediately reversed. everyone is stunned. the overboard chief kodi suddenly gets up and the water is ankle deep. we had hit rocks and there had been no signs for it. chief fran is on a rock and is yelling how slimy the water is. scrapes and bruises is what is left of the boat experience.

florida is also a place for theme parks. one of my favorite is busch gardens. i had been obsessing forever and josh and i hadn't been able to go because of thundershowers. i had only 5 days in florida and one of those days HAD to be a busch gardens day. i found the enthusiastic and theme park nut ch. jolynn to go with. we went on sheikra which was real short and intense. we decided it wasn't enough excitement so we went on it again. in the front as always. we had an understanding about riding in the front. right after sheikra was kumba which tumbled my insides out and made chief jolynn pale. but we kept GOING. i said the scorpion ride would be a piece of cake but i couldn't even find my balance once off the ride. jolynn said i looked green.

we didn't quit. we had ice cream and kept going.

great day that day. rollercoasters help you face fears concerning death and fears revolving around trust issues. one has no choice but to trust the people behind the controls and the universe for keeping you safe. great day for drilling that into my soul.

headed out to nashville. saying goodbye to gale, 3 hours later reconnecting with chandelle, my yogini friend whom i met in india at the ashram... an hour after that alan came into town for a t.v show he was going to be interviewed at the day after. the only way i could process this was to go for sushi. i had had sushi and saki the night before to process leaving florida and the insanity of rollercoasters...and now sushi again to help me live through emotions of not having seeing friends for so many years.

chan and i began yapping almost immediately. sadie her human friend (she doesn't want me to say 'dog') woke me up this morning wanting us to get up already! alan's presence was wonderful. having 2 of my closest friends in the same room was not what i was expecting. i wasn't expecting to see alan as soon as i did.

alan and i went to his taping of his interview with john siegenthaler. what an impressive man- modest, knowledgable and respected. he was given way too much attention as far as getting his foundation evenly distributed on his face but i guess that is what fame brings you- everyone wants to spend more time with you SOME way. i sat in the controls room watching alan in 4 different screens. i cried a little. i was telling alan how one does see anothers face while talking but because you are engaged in conversation you don't necessarily watch the mimics of their face. here as an observer alan just seemed so familiar and i was proud to have been sharing this moment with him. we rode off to chattanooga right after the show to see his friends out there. he only aspect of chattanooga i liked was their bridges and the fact that they were blue in color.

i know the UEFA cup finals was one of the happiest moments of my life. there have been other moments like my first ever visit to a planetarium. so was seeing chan and alan.

confetti

just as i had never owned an espresso making thingamajee and my response to it was quite positive, i believe i have found one other thing i would like to have in my life now and then- an occasion to watch confetti with lights reflecting off of it. i felt like i was in a snowglobe when i took this picture.

UEFA finali ve cekirdek birligi

50000 insan, bir taraf yesil beyaz, bizim taraf turuncu. dun aksam hayatimda unutamayacagim anlar yasadim.

uykuluyum ama sanki daha stadtayim gibi. dun tum gun zaten iletisim seli vardi- sorular durmadi, emailler akti, toplantilar degisti ve karisti. o arada surekli aklimda UEFA, maca nasil gidecegiz, ruzgar var usurmuyum, cekirdek cok cigneyen olacakmis, vapurla gecmek en iyisi galiba, elbisemi degistirip kotumu simdi giysem...yani zihin muthis bir varlik, 1000 isin arasinda hayatindaki o anda neye takiyorsan o dusunce surekli geri gelip huzurunu direk bozuyor. ondan zaten patronum bana magnezyum vitaminimi alsana dedi. herhalde gozlerimden delilik mi fiskiriyordu artik neydi.

kosa kosa kendime esofman ustu aldim. bulusttuk hep beraber vapura bindik. batuhan, jose ve ben. yani planlar merkur yuzunden surekli degisti. heyecanimdan da ne dedigimi de pek farkinda degilim. batuhan'la 2 saniyelik tanisikligimiz vardi is hayatinda. merhaba merhaba seklinde. telefonda aksam planini ogrenecegim zaman planlar degismis, belki gelirim dedi, bende demezmiyim "yani UEFA finale hayir diyorsunuz". yani sanki herkes icin UEFA dunyanin donmesinin nedeni. jose de isten. cok fazla muahbbetimiz yoktu, ayda bir turkiye'ye gelir, seker ve samimidir. bir kac defa yemek yemisttik ve cikolata souffle aski oldugunu biliyordum.

cikolata hayranlara saygim sonsuz.

ciya'da atistirdik ama ne yedik sormayin. catlak kavurma diye bir yemek isminden baslayip isitirik bitki cayimiydi yoksa bicirik domates tatlisi mi. 10 kez ciya'ya gitsem de isimleri ogrenemem (bu 4.kez oluyor, 10. kez bakarim bir tane yemek ismi hatirlayacagim mi). zaten menu yok, usta'ya butun yemekleri soruyorsun, o kalabalikta da eger sordugun sorunun cevabi da geliyorsa ne mutlu sana.

stad'a yururken alman yesiller yollarda, sarki soyleye soyleye gidiyorlar. 11. kapi'dan girdik. bir cici amca biletimize bakti gectik. kapi'dan girdik ve baska bir dunya'ya geldigimi hissettim. herkesin bir amaci var, mac seyretmek. o enerji herhalde beni biraz vurdu. gozlerimi kirpmadim herhalde cunku kirptigim zaman acidi, kurumus yani. her taraftan flaslar patliyor, onumuzde arkamizda cekirdek citlayanlar, cekirdek ikram ediliyor filan, cekirdek satanlar ve cekirdek yiye yiye susayanlar icin su (ve bagiranlarin bogaz kurulugu icin de).


kimi tutsam diye kafamda soru isaretim yoktu. cok bariz. shaktar'i tutacaktim. ilk defa ukraynalilar fenerbahce stadina geliyorlar, bari kazansinlar. almanlar kac defa kupa'yi tuttular bari baskalariyla paylassinlar. yerlerimiz hangi tarafta olacagini bilemedigimiz icin turunculari gorunce baya sevindim. jose ve batuhan'i zaten uyarmistim, bak cok bagiracagim, aglayadabilirim belli olmaz. aglamadim da, icim sakinlesti. elektronlar hucreler arasi cakismalar sakinlesti.

dun aksam ashtanga vardi ve mac'a gitmeyi sectim.

bir mac= bir yoga seansi. yuzum boyle nur gibi bugun.

lomo in my life

i absolutely love the lomo effect. an absolute surprise.
also the fact that only 7 some pictures came out because the roll got unstuck and could not move...i blame it on mercury retrograde...clearly its mercury...

zaman bir kurgu ama birseyler de geciyor

onceden bir yoga seanstan sonra hemen bir "toparlanma" olurdu bende. yarim tepsi borek, 3 tane baklava yedikten sonrada enerjim dusmezdi. ama birseyler degisti. sabah saat 0600da zimba gibi kalkamamak durumu var, hafif bir agirlasma...ama inanin ashtanga yoga mysore style dersine girdigimde sanki vucudum daha da esnemis buluyorum. 4 haftada mesela onceden yapamadiklarimi yaptigimi izliyorum sanki yapan ben degilim ve de her zaman yapabiliyormusum da unutmusum. cok enteresan. bazi seylere vedalastiktan sonra baska seylere de merhaba demek zorundayim. alisveris sistemi yani. minik bir gobege merhaba, kelebek durusta dizlerimin yere degebilmesine hosgeldin.

istanbul nasil bir yer. hayranim. insan mucadele etmek zorunda yoksa cigner ve geri tukurur. istanbul'u hayatima getirdim, eski uyuzlasmis halime goodbye dedim. baska sekilde yapamazdim. ama bu hadiselerden sonrada sasirdigim bazi olaylar oluyor. remzi'ye girdim gecenlerde, liderlik kitap aliyorum, ordaki eleman "yorgunsunuz bugun irem hanim" dedi. anaa dedim, nasi yani, nerden taniyor beni? dumur oldum. ciktigimda gecmis dosyalari kurcaliyorum ve buluyorum ki ben bu cocuga bir arkadasa not birakmistim ve arkadasimi tanimasi icin karikatur gibi yuzunu cizmistim, (arkadasimin cebi kapaliydi ve merkur gerilemedemiydi hatirlamiyorum bulusma remzi'de olacakti megersem acil disciye gitmesi gerekmis) notu ona vermesini istemistim.

neeeyse. durusum farklilasti, ruyalarim ya deprem de sallandigimi goruyorum ya da bebek var kucagimda. her zamanki kosmali ruyalar degil yani. amerika seyhatim yaklasiyor ve 2.5 sene sonra gidecegim. 2.5 sene. zamansiz yasasaydik ne rahat olacak hayat var ya, hersey akardi, birlesirdi ve degerlendirmek gibi olaylari parcalayip anlam vermek gibi bir derdimiz olmazdi...