merkezim nerde

bazen kendimi taniyamiyorum, herhalde is hayati, istanbul kosusturmalari, sehrin verdigi ayakta kalma enerjisi ve surekli harekette bulunmak, ben kim oldugumu unutuyorum. ya da kimligimi cozmek icin bu kadar cok farkli seyler yapiyorum. doruk noktasi gecen hafta geldi ve kendimi silkelemek icin rafting yapmaya karar verdim. melen cayi. soguk su, kopuklu sulardan gecmek, yuzmek, koylerde dolasmak, yeni insanlari tanimak. nasil rahatladim. 15 derecelik suya atladim, kopuklu sularin uzerinden gecerken gulme krizleri tuttu, vraklayan yaratiklar simdi ismini unuttum gormek icimi acti.

ertesi gun egeyle edirne'ye gittim. selimiye camii, beyazid'in hastanesi, kervansaray filan, belediye'nin sunumu, grupta sehir planlamacilar, mimarlar, koruma dernek uyeleri, bilgi dolu bir beyinle istanbul'a dondum.

ozumde tek yerde kalmak beni merkezimden uzaklastiriyor. demek bana dolasmak iyi geliyor. patronum pazartesi beni gordugunde "irem geri donmus" dedi.

a weekend away away

ashy life

it's not easy being positive these days. the number of natural disasters that effect us at such a global level has increased this year more than ever before. i have only thirty some years to look back at... but with Lufthansa losing 25m Euros a day, 6.8m passengers stranded and 136m Euros lost in total in a few days, airlines and airports are beginning to declare bankruptcy. there is some serious complaining going on by nature as my energetic friend burcu said yesterday. with the acid rain effecting crops and animals, all this has not just effected my mood it has effected my entire perspective on my lifestyle. so ok i am a vegetarian, i live minimally or try to, using environmentally friendly products to be a contributing member of society, using public transportation instead of owning a car...maybe i should think about growing my own vegetables...maybe do more and more yoga to not have to depend on bodily needs as much as i do...i have gotten tired of doing the same things you know...eat, pee and poop. like john maxwell says "you have to live everyday and that isn't easy". and it isn't going to get any easier.

quakes

one earthquake after another. it leaves me speechless. healing to everyone.
it is just hard to swallow the truth that the earth is changing and we have to change our own ways to make it a place we can continue to live in.

Irem's yoga classes are inspiring because of her happy energy. She gives suggestions for pose modification so all levels can join in. Her explanations of yoga theory and reasons for breathing techniques and poses are helpful in integrating them into life outside of class. I very much enjoy the weekly classes.

SN

ortak bilinc

cumartesi sabahi icimden dedim bugun cicekleri sulayim, bir kova ve tasla yapayim bu isi cunku yagmur persembe gunu yagacak. disari ciktim, modada yuruduk kikirikukuri gulduk dolasttik ve dondum. cayimi yaptim ve penceremden bi baktim, amcanin biri kova ve tasla cicekleri teker teker suluyor. actim pencereyi sordum sagolun, kimsiniz. 16 numaradayim dedi, cicekler aksam suyunu sever dedi....

besiktas belediyesi

besiktas belediyesi'ne cok mektup yazdim. iste onumdeki minik bahceye, kaldirimin yanindaki yani, oraya bakarmisiniz, iste bahcelik toprak koyarmisiniz, bir kac dayanikli bitki dikermisiniz, kaldirim kac haftadir kirik dokuk onarirmisiniz, alt gecit pislik icinde cop kutusu koyarmisniz falandi filandi. baya proje yuruttuk. en son kisisel projem cicek dikmekti ki bunu besiktas'a sormadim cunku park ve bahceler mudurlugu diyecekti- o kucuk bahce dediginiz sey belediye'nin sorumlulugu degil. peki. mahalle cicekci ile toplanti yaptim, cicekler secildi, gecen haftasonu diktik beraber. belediye atiklari topladi sagolsun.

bu sabah perdelerimi acarken belediye'nin temizlikci elemani bahcemin otlarini yolarken gordum. hemen saklandim. anin buyusunu bozmak istemedim...

spring is here- but not in the evenings

what a lovely weekend. the sun was out, there was a cool breeze and you heard the birds louder than usual (or maybe i heard them for the first time since last summer). in the afternoon my florist came over with flowers to plant for my tiny garden and the neighborhood tortie cat kept us company. new plants, fresh soil, weeds out, plants looking weary now perked up...it looks dandy.



then off i went to galata to see old friends from far and near, after some tea we ate at kivan which was absolutely yummy. just my type of food. lots of vegetarian options and cheeky but friendly waiters. from there we walked down to sishane and sat at a cafe called pictures and stories where we decided to take care of emel's baby kumpir in buyukada during the 23rd april long weekend. 4 women and one kumpir. it should be a good story.



sunday i walked in yildiz park with one of yoga students for a bit. it is relieving to see people going to parks instead of malls but when there are sooo many people it becomes a pain. there is absolutely no place left to sit...anywhere. that's when i start thinking about how there should be more parks or less people and neither is going to be happening very soon, which is when i start thinking about simply walking away.